i wasn't that interesting to begin with.

at our best.

"now every time I see you I pretend I'm fine
 when I want to reach out to you 
 but I turn and walk and let it ride
 baby I must confess
 we were bigger than anything 
 remember us at our best
 and don't forget about ... "

walkaway.

need to stop.

shouldn't do this to myself. 

:'|

Blue.

been blue. been very blue. went and take a look at the old picture of me, of them, of us. 

throughout high school, first hang out, first semester, first date, till this very moment.

the memories are endless.

for the people that now i know now is fake, rest in peace. 

i have no grudge. 

perhaps, too tired even to hold one.

tonight, 

will be the night.

tonight,

is where i will let everything go.

me,

you,

us. 

by us i mean old friends, 

the one who let go of me first, 

and i only learn to let go of them as well, 

so we both wont be equally hurt and lost.

Lost.

i've been giddy for such a long time. 

i've been out and be normal for a period of time.

it's time..

to go back to the moon.

and hopefully there, i can be lost. 

simply because i don't want to be found.

sense of trust, is all what i need now.

and perhaps, i deserved none.