apart.

how i wish i could sing along to this song and 

pretend that i am one of those independent woman. 

am saying this because i know i am not.

still, i hold to that one person to help me through my ups and downs,

sad and laughter, everything i went through.

until i felt..

i've had enough.

i've hide many of 

my imperfections. 

my flaws.

the other side of me.

 i've held down to that person long enough,

until i lost my diploma years.

not that i regret it,

it's just, 

i am sorry for not being a better friend.

i chose to settle down with myself.

i chose to please one person rather than pleasing the whole crowd.

then i lost the whole crowd.

they don't care about me as much as i don't care about them.

but i know they have been talking.

and ...  

as much as i seem not to care,

i do.

it hurts.

and as it hurts too bad,

  subconsciously,  i begun to

hurt the people around me.

it's a never ending cycle.

because, 

all i ever wanted is 

to please the world

and lose myself.